It’s annoying isn’t it? What the hell’s she got that you haven’t? She just happened to be there first.
My advice is to try and use the feeling. Lean on it. The love and admiration you feel for him, try and move it round so you’re feeling it for life in general. Then, if you’re lucky, it might turn into a sort of spirituality. It’s illusion at first, but after a while it may turn into something more permanent.
You just have to remember though, he isn’t your god. God is. And God will sort you out with a lovely young boy when the time is right.